God,

Do you remember those nights where I would walk out to the front porch, past the swing, down the steps, along the sidewalk, stepped on the grass, hid from my mom’s kitchen light, sat on the grass next to the yellow tulips, and looked up at your stars?

Of course you do.

I remember being in true awe of your night and stars.

All of a sudden, I deeply miss that moment. My family, my naiveness, hearing my mom wash the dishes, I can see her youthful face in my mind. The yellow flowers along the house, being taken care of, being a kid, being in true awe with no words to articulate my amazement of your creation.

My heart is currently deeply yearning with ache for that narrow window of my life called childhood.

Nothing was being strived for.

God, I wish upon your stars that lit my house that night to please illuminate my next steps.

My God, you have guided me. You have always provided and I ask that you show me which direction.

In you, only in you, I can trust my life to.

In you, only in you, I can find purpose.

For you, only for you, I live for.

I trust you.